Life as we know it

 Life, what is life, is it love? Is it hate? Is it something in  between? I’m not sure. But what I do know, is that it’s not easy. 

Deep, I know. Usually I don’t talk about life, just like me, most of us just try to live it. But is that really what we should be doing? I mean don’t get me wrong we should try our best to live but we shouldn’t try pushing what we can’t understand. 

Look at life and the world, how it’s trying to kill you. You’ll be having a great day and then life just throws things at you that you can’t handle. Sure, there are good things to life, like your friends and family but sometimes life likes to take those things away from you. 

Life thinks it's okay to push you into a deep dark hole that you just can’t escape from. And while you're in this hole you can hear voices telling you things you want to say aren't true but you believe they are. You scream out as loud as you can but it feels like no one can hear you. 

Once and a while you’ll invite someone into your life, you’ll give this person some of your heart and they’ll just break it. You don’t want to believe they have betrayed you because life makes them look so pretty. Soon that person will leave with your heart shattered and then come back to fix it with one small bandage but it's too flimsy and falls off. Then you're left with your heart still broken. People keep coming in and you make the same mistakes every time and never learn. In the end you’ll be left with nothing to hold on to. 

To make things worse, there is a thing called ‘The Imaginary Audience’ 

Let me tell you about ‘The Imaginary Audience’ It was made by life and it’ll make you think that everyone has their eyes on you, all the time. Making you think what you look like, what you say, even what you're doing right now; is bad. It’s called imaginary for a reason, because it’s not real but somehow we still believe it is. It feels like you can’t do anything good for this “audience.” The feeling of the “audience” gets so bad that you can’t leave your room or get out of bed. It’s the same feeling when you hear thunder outside or when an earthquake hits.

Now that we have established how bad life can be, we need to talk about the smallest things that make life a little better. 

When I say small things I mean when someone gives you a hug when you're sad or, if someone just stays with you in silence so you can just be with them for company and get it all out. When someone surprises you with a gift. When you go out to dinner with someone special who you know won’t break your heart. When it’s been raining for weeks and then it finally clears up and the sun just shines. When you make a new friend. When you give someone a compliment or someone gives one to you. When you make someone smile. When someone actually listens and hears your voice.

So I think I know what life is now. Life can be cruel and heartless and make you think it’s trying to kill you but really it's trying to tell you that even through the hard times, you are loved and you are enough for the world. That is how you should try and make other people feel but don’t forget to look after yourself. Don’t put the pain that the people around have, on yourself and think that you always have to make them happy. 

Just balance loving yourself and others, if you can.